9653.) I used do self mutilate every morning when I woke up, every day at 12:00 at school, every time I got home, and every night before I went to bed. I dont know how to quit. But that, and drugs are my only escape. Im too scared to tell my parents. I’ve thought about suicide over 30 times within a week. I’ve been serious about suicide 72 times. I still have every letter I wrote. Im only 12.